I don’t think I realized how dead my heart has been over the last four years working for the company I worked for. I have missed some of the people, but I will not return their for any amount of money.

It sucks when people don’t appreciate what you have done for them. I know it sounds like I am whining, but I am not. I am not responsible for what happened to me or how they treated me, but I am responsible for how I react and my personal situation, so I hit the road to awaken desire. I can feel the Muse awakening the stone I have encased in my chest.

This afternoon I walked on a trail I am exercising on in Grafton, North Dakota. The woods at dusk are exhilarating for me. I love the smells, the chilly breeze, my breath as it exhales from my lungs like smoke from a good cigar. The woods are alive at dusk and so am I. I love the woods; I love exploring new places. I know the Muse senses my heart awakening. I walked around the tip of a small ravine to discover a herd of 12 deer. I must have been really quiet because I caught them off guard. The does and their fawns bound off quickly, but a young six point stands his ground; curious to see who had snuck up on him so easily. We stared each other down for what seemed like hours, but it was only an instant. I walked toward him and he snorted and bound off into the woods. What a beautiful moment.

I thanked the Muse for his love and his willingness to give me such a great gift.

My heart is waking up!